Publisher's Synopsis
This historic book may have numerous typos and missing text. Purchasers can usually download a free scanned copy of the original book (without typos) from the publisher. Not indexed. Not illustrated. 1914 edition. Excerpt: ... business, at her request and left the place. There has been much said here about my character, the most desperate part of which is the occurrence in New York. "With regard to Mrs. Hamilton's character I have nothing to say. She was a virtuous and honorable woman, and I loved her. If there is virtue in the Catholic religion I am prepared. I hope Almighty God will have mercy on her soul. I fear she died unprepared. When I left New York my mind was greatly depressed. I threatened to take my own life, and she was aware of it. I went to bed that morning and made up my mind to take my life and sunk into a swoon, as near as I recollect. In this situation Mrs. Hamilton came to my room. I did not call her. She shut the door. I laid on my bed, with my face toward the wall. She said, "Clough, what is the matter." I said I felt very bad, and wished her to give me some laudanum. She asked me how much? I said, what you please. She gave me some, and said I must get up. There was a noise in the entry. I said, if you have anything to say to me, say it quickly. I put my hand in my pocket to get out my key to give her--I wished her to possess all that I had. She went out. I went to the door and saw Jane or someone in the entry. I pushed too the door. She peeped through. I was in the act of taking my own life. I had the dirk in my pocket. She came in. I closed the door. I told her I should take my life, and she interfered and put her hand on my shoulder. I told her to go out. I reflected a moment and after striking her one blow, why did I strike her eleven? Why did I not strike my own heart? I was very weak, and the dirk dropped out of my hand, and I could scarcely get to my bed. I was on the point of taking my own life. If she had stayed out of my room, ...
